Houses & buildings were not just left as they were : all doors are large, none are revolving, there are no cagelike places, elevators are transparent, all windows can open, places open out onto other places, hallways are generous, there is no rent, backyards behind city buildings are joined without fences so you could ride a horse behind the streets, some pavements have turned back to dirt, there isnt any money, money became so physically large that to accumulate five dollars it would take a whole old-fashioned room full of these big metal things ellipsoid in shape, all the sewage of…

The sauce is done. Then I went to visit a girlfriend of mine who was going to a Jesuit college in Syracuse. When I came home Bob met me at the airport, it was the first time I’d flown and I had fallen in love with someone and that was Ed. We went back to my house in Ridgewood, this was when I was trying to go to Barnard but it took me two hours to get there. Bob’s mother had given me a wedding shower because my grandfather had given me my mother’s diamond ring and she took that…

I ask are you finished, you seem to want mine. There’s only time left to tell how the floors met the walls and we saw centipedes all the time crawling across the carpets which were green beneath the blue glass table which was a mirror with a plate of balls on it under the windows which on some days we cleaned but not too well so we wouldn’t fall out like my mother did not but someone else’s mother did and she died but my sister fell out once with a piece of cheese in her hand but she was…

A calm sentence like a story. I used to know a man who had a dog and I followed their steps in the snow, I got into the habit of walking just as far as they did every day. At the same time I also knew a woman whose husband had seven guns. I used to know a woman who’s the woman who married Neil Simon. I like the woman who used to work in the Lenox market, she never wears boots, then she retired. In New England the women are often more exciting than the men, Lewis thinks so…

that if you can get enough to eat will sustain itself can move forward & can live till it dies at this moment in this world there are millions of others of your species who you could say in language eat stand & site, fuck & shit, ingest procreate & defecate on or near this same ground, whichever may you like it you sit stand or lie on a world globe orb or circumstance that’s a planet revolving on its axis in an orbit around so-called sun what else could you say that’s true ? You could begin to tell how…

I have an image of a beautiful man or woman who walks in the door like Christ and earnestly spends some time with us like the UPS man does. Bernadette Mayer Mindwinter day (22nd December 1978) New Directions Books 1982 35…

An idea is to spend days walking nights writing never eating, sleep only when it rains and have an occasional beer. Bernadette Mayer Mindwinter day (22nd December 1978) New Directions Books 1982 34…

I had been wanting to keep a journal of one week of living in New York and every detail of everything that happened at work, home and in the community, to see if recording everything about living in the city would be illuminating funny or useful because it would be about money, work, politics and sex. Everything you or I or anybody says always seems 100% wrong sometimes, unless you keep forcing it to be closer to the truth, kids have sharper memories till they learn to use the language well and then there is always all that prevaricating and…