And with great fear I inha\u00adbit the middle of the night
\nWhat wrecks of the mind await me, what drugs
\nto dull the senses, what lit\u00adtle I have left,
\nwhat more can be taken away ?<\/p>\n
The fear of tra\u00advel\u00adling, of the future without hope
\nor buoy. I must get away from this place and see
\nthat there is no fear without me : that it is within
\nunless it be some sud\u00adden act or calamity<\/p>\n
to land me in the hos\u00adpi\u00adtal, a total wreck, without
\nmemo\u00adry again ; or worse still, behind bars. If
\nI could just get out of the coun\u00adtry. Some place
\nwhere one can eat the lotus in peace.<\/p>\n
For in this coun\u00adtry it is ter\u00adror, pover\u00adty awaits ; or
\nam I a mar\u00adked man, my life to be a lesson
\nor expe\u00adrience to those young who would trod
\nthe same path, without God<\/p>\n
unless he be one of jus\u00adtice, to wreak vengeance
\non the acts com\u00admit\u00adted while young under un-
\ndue influence or cir\u00adcum\u00adstance. Oh I have
\nalways seen my life as dra\u00adma, patterned<\/p>\n
after those who met with disas\u00adter or doom.
\nIs my mind being taken away me.
\nI have been over the abyss before. What
\nis that rin\u00adging in my ears that tells me<\/p>\n
all is nigh, is naught but the roa\u00adring of the win\u00adter wind.
\nWoe to those home\u00adless who are out on this night.
\nWoe to those crimes com\u00admit\u00adted from which we
\ncan walk away unharmed.<\/p>\n
So I turn on the light
\nAnd smoke rings rise in the air.
\nDo not think of the future ; there is none.
\nBut the for\u00admu\u00adla all great art is made of.<\/p>\n
Pain and suf\u00adfe\u00adring. Give me the strength
\nto bear it, to enter those places where the
\ngreat ani\u00admals are caged. And we can live
\nat peace by their side. A bride to the burden<\/p>\n
that no god imposes but knows we have the means
\nto sus\u00adtain its force unto the end of our days.
\nFor that is what we are made for ; for that
\nwe are crea\u00adted. Until the dark hours are done.<\/p>\n
And we rise again in the dawn.
\nInfinite par\u00adticles of the divine sun, now
\nwor\u00adship\u00adped in the pitches of the night.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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